the ramblings of lily

amazed.

2010-07-10T00:07:00.002+10:00

i just met the professor graeme clark, oh em gee, who developed the bionic ear. i wish i was smarter so i could understand more of what he said in his speech about his research and about science and god. but anyway. it was amazing! and i got a photo =]

also, today i helped someone do their makeup for a 21st! excite for me because i am considered to be a pro now XD hehehe.

and baked banana muffins but i dont like them so...o_O

FREEEEEEEEEEEDOMMMMMMMMMM.

2010-06-25T01:54:00.001+10:00

sorta free now cos i got 4999 on my word count [and hoping my referencing is only 500 words cos that's my 10% leeway hahaha]

anyway. i am free. let's go do stuff. ^^v

food time!

at baillieu.

2010-06-14T15:18:00.002+10:00

so like, i handed one essay in, am currently trying read a whole freaking chinese book that i'm supposed to do a lit review on, and just got an email saying that my other essay is supposed to be 5000 words long, wth? 5000? i've never written anything that long before in my life! -_-" and a few days ago i asked him he said around 2000. pch.

so pissed at the moment. these fob girls with accents are annoying me.stop watching youtube with the sound on and study, geez.

anyway before all this pissyfaceness i was at newquay international buffet with family and we had soooooooo much food ^^ i also bought a new red dress today! and it was one-shouldered =D woohoo.

and that is all. food blogging is more fun! visit eatsaralee.wordpress.com ^^v

grey...drizzles...sore throat...x_X

2010-06-05T15:34:00.002+10:00

i cannot believe i didnt blog about suwii's 21st...so sorry!

so this is what we did on suwii's special day...=]

we met up in the morn at the clock, and srh bought a small cake from breadtop for suwii ^^ and we all ate some, and then we decided to go to st kilda to roam, eat and such =D and at st kilda we discovered...AMAZING CAKE SHOPS. like, one after another. so awesome. but didnt eat any, and after a loooot of deciding we decided on a restaurant, i had the BIGGEST BOWL OF PUMPKIN SOUP IN MAH LIFE. and srh got big brekkie and suwii got grilled chicken burger which wasnt the best but the chips were the best! =D and then we hung out on the beach and discussed whether a certain disabled seagull was actually standing on one leg or only had one leg, and it was actually disabled. poor thing. and opened presents. hahaha magic dayyyyy~

i failed to attend the krn bbq dinner because...i was waiting for someone to pick me up and they didnt get to my house on time ='( i still feel sooooo bad. poopoo.

so the party was at campari house, which i'd already squeeeeed about cos i saw it last time i went to a party, and the rooftop was pretty! but too packed and smokey...and was raining a bit ><" pizza was good! and saw a few old faces and omg jn^2 o_O didnt have much space to talk to and take photos with everyone tho =( pity. not enough photos with suwii! D: and she had polaroids which were awesome [cept joo wrecked one of mine and i was like, wth.] hehe.

it was fun, but i think we need a more *intimate* party =D hence we're going out to dinner tonight! but not everyone is attending -_-"

currently baking brownies for my driver so i wont feel as guilty for always making srh and suwii drive me ><"

should we plan our lives or...go with the flow?

2010-05-26T19:40:00.008+10:00

i should be doing uni work but anyway...

yesturday i ignored two people i knew, pretended i didn't see them. because...they made my day worse.
my boss is innocent and doesn't realise exactly how much pressure he puts on me, i mean...sending me smses about work when i'm trying to study for uni, and whenever i'm not at work i get smses and calls...
the other...does not realise when he's gone too far with 'joking'. and it wasn't even funny. i know i will forgive in time but...it really pisses me off how insensitive people are. i know i may be too sensitive at times, but enough is enough.
no, i didn't feel guilty ignoring them. i felt good.

today i met up with a friend for coffee, which was nice =] i love it when people bother to catch up...i can't stress it enough. we talked about the usual, uni, life, my work, family...and strangely enough for me, he suddenly asked me if i liked/wanted babies. hahaha surprised much? i don't usually talk to guys about having children, getting married, such and such, but i did today, and it was interesting. i think guys in general would have a different view on these things and a different life plan. i used to have a plan of my life, it doesn't really exist now though...anyway, it got me thinking about the future.

do i want kids? my reply was: 'well my mum said i had to so...i have to'. lol. not really the truth, but i know she'll help me raise them...? i'm scared of the physical pain i'd have to go through, but i think i'd like to have children...i remember seeing my aunty look after my baby cousin and seeing how wonderful it was =] but the responsibility and the whole parenting thing, omg, i don't know how i'd be able to do all that O_o

what's my number one career? 'gold digger!' hahaha. no, that's not really true, i'm just high-maintenance lol. would i ever have an average- or low-income family? i haven't thought about it but i probably could...? however, i don't expect to. maybe my expectations are too high. anyway, i don't wanna be too rich, too much money causes too much problems. xP career-wise, i'm still not sure, but i do want a job that's sorta related to international relations. but then the problem of possibly having to move arises. gah.

so would i be able to stay with one person for the rest of my life? i think so, but then how would i know anyway? i'll see if i can last...3 or 4 years...then i will be more sure of it. ^^

and i think i'm running out of things to say hahaha. i do look forward to married life and a house and family of my own, but it seems to be very far away at the moment. *stares off into distance*...

...and i have returned.

two phrases i dislike and dread hearing:
1. "i'll make it up to you"
2. "i'll get back to you"

two perfectly common sentences, that sound normal. so why do i dislike them so much?
maybe it's because it gives me...continuous hope. maybe because i hate the disappointment when making up to me doesnt happen, or getting back to me ends up being a 'no'. is this normal? whenever i hear these two sentences i get annoyed...for no apparent reason. this dislike and annoyance seems to have surfaced in the past year or so, so maybe it might be caused by disappointment in a particular person who says this to me...?

ok i'm really going now...doodeedoo.

i baked...

2010-05-24T17:04:00.002+10:00

chocolate brownies. and they were ok and i shared =]

a change in the recipe...i used lots of cream cheese and less butter ^^

yuen: they're fluffier~

me: mmm. less fat. good good.

annnnd i dont know what smn thinks =T but i did walk in the rain and go all the way to nerd building to deliver him some x)

in other news, have to start/finish oral by 2moro...i got home early to do work but instead i watched heroes and ebayed because i want a new tie because jenny has my tie still...=X

that is all. nothing deep today, i shall keep it all in my head for now =]

boom boom...pow?

2010-05-21T22:47:00.007+10:00

wow, i really like the word 'boom' huh? suju's new awesome song is called 나쁜 여자 (Boom Boom) and i only just associated that with boom boom pow! hahaha. and i put that korean as my fb status and some korean dude commented x)

anyway, today...i got cancelled on for breakfast cos some superman was too busy saving lives but said he had insomnia -_-"

went to work, still more stuff piled up on me...and then met up with karen for lunch/brunch/coffee =D i had a coffee~ i miss seeing karen like...more than twice a week =( and then we went to study at commerce labs and it was my first time and the monitors are big O_o

lunched at big mama with boss, waha. apparently he is now obsessed with food and healthiness and i'm like, duh i know all this already =P and he also told me about some club he went to and how his wife disapproves of him clubbing and i was like lol in my head.

dentist was not fun, spent like 2 hrs there but at least i got to sms ppl and got a few smses back XD

...

love at first sight.

yet another thing i don't believe in, and never really did believe in. attraction to people just by looking at them...does that not seem too shallow? wouldnt it be more likely to attract people if one was good-looking? doesn't that mean people who are less good-looking are less likely to experience 'love at first sight'? it's stupid. love cannot happen just with one look, it takes time, sharing of thoughts and experiences, spending time together and such. yes, initial attraction can be a very important starting point for a relationship, but it's not essential.

which brings me to infatuation. that heart-skippy, jumpy, majorly excited feeling when u see someone, when u accidentally brush against them, when u get an sms from them, when they call you...etc, etc. so i know how that feels, because as a teenager...well of course hormone levels were retarded and there were a few guys i felt a little attracted to, even though i didnt know them. so, for example, at the moment, i'm infatuated with...kyuhyun from super junior, because of his looks and his voice. and if i thought about him all the time, i would eventually make myself believe that i knew him and could be with him, based on what other people say about him. and the same would go for a non-celeb. i don't think this feeling would last very long, and it's only temporary...so what if it wears off? what if...you went out with someone you were infatuated with, and once you got to know them better, you realise that you weren't meant to be, and all those feelings, pain, happiness and all that were wasted?

therefore, infatuation sucks.

i hate the feeling of infatuation, i know some people like it, but i hate it [unless it's with a yunho kyuhyun and others, of course hahaha XD] it makes me feel vulnerable, weak, stupid. hence i'd rather go into denial and then force myself to get over it. i am stubborn, and i like how my stubborness kills any infatuation i get.

no, i don't make much sense, but that's how i feel. i was infatuated with one or two people for a veeeeery short period of time in my uni life, but the one i ended up with, i wasn't that infatuated with, but instead...i grew to like him more and more, and there was no sudden downhill once the infatuation ended, because it wasn't really there in the first place. it's probably not like that with most people but...it's odd, but very fortunate for me. aint' i a lucky one? =]

anyway! i am freezing, bed time. after brush [and NOT floss] teeth x)

foooooooood and more food =D

2010-05-20T23:12:00.002+10:00

yesturday was srh's real 21st! ^^ so we went to TRUNK for dinner, and it was pretty good =] i had a mushroom pizza hehehe. anyway, i *think* she really liked the afrojew man tshirt i got custom made for her which is awesommmmmmmmmmme XD and shall make more and give to ppl in the near future hehe.

today i went to seven seeds with nikki in the morn <3 and it was awesome and much better than the fail cafenatics coffee yesturday =T

anyway. i have decided to try to be deep today.

fate.

i am still questioning its existence.

'the one'.

being a very logical person, i dont believe in this concept.
'the one', in my understanding, is like the only person for you, the best person for you, perfect, completely compatible, everything u wanted, to be your significant other, your life partner, your other half, the person you will not be able to live without.
how can it be that only one person, say, out of the 2,234,860,800+ males aged between 15 and 64, as estimated in 2009, could be the only person that would be 'the one' for me...it's not possible to meet every single one of them, hence it is not possible to find the best, most perfect for me...hence, if i do get married and live with someone for the rest of my life, it would just be the person most suitable for me in the environment i have access to, at that time, that i have happened to meet. no, 'the one' is just something that people have made up in their heads, like a fairytale.
having said that, it's not that i dont think i will be the happiest with someone for the rest of my life, without having to look all over the world for him...it's just that i don't believe in this concept, and it's better to think more rationally and logically (...and in a practical way?). if i were to believe that there was really 'the one', it would be so difficult for me to open up to any potentials, and that will just make it harder to find the most suitable one, right?

anyway. i'm fairly happy where i am...just that it was naive of me to used to think in such a fairytale way and that i'm glad i'm more logical now. knowing that life is not a fairytale makes it seem more meaningful, more real, more rewarding when something has been achieved.

and that is all i have to say about that issue. on a lighter note, i dont know why the stats are 15-64 yr olds, but hahaha, i wouldnt go out with a 64 yr old or a 15 yr old would i? ew.

sleepy. must finish translation!meeting 2 friends 2moro. =]

update. just for suwii & nikki. =]

2010-05-18T01:08:00.002+10:00

ok ok i shall update before i go to sleep x)

life has been much better since the last post, and i am generally happy =]

random highlights of life:

- kava tasted horrible and i didnt feel anything cos i didnt have enough, but baking day with yuen and nikki was awesommmme. souffles ftw. macaroons are too hard.

- had a 21st on sunday...david wang & eddie's...was way crowded...softbelly wasnt big enough aha.

- srh's real 21st on wednesday and dinner out! woohooooo. ^^v

- and yes, smn and i had our 18th month on mother's day and that was fun and he met my family friends cos we had a bbq at ruffey lake x)

- i want a dslr! =(

- BONAMANA. super junior is SO HOT in it. well kyuhyun especially. and leeteuk cos he has abs now and wears a suit without a shirt under it lolol =Q__ and han geng has disappeared pooooo.

- i wanna be a wedding planner.

- sooooooooo tirrrrrrrrred. from lack of sleep cos watching super junior too much cos too hot.

- my eyes are closing so i shall go now.

hehehe. love y'all <3

...happy then sad then sadder then happy again then caring then not caring.

2010-05-04T19:07:00.002+10:00

today i think i had a major hormonal imbalance.

i wished i was sick and bedridden so i would have an excuse to not go to work and not go to uni and do any work.

i've never hated uni before. and now i do. i love my teachers but i hate the work that i have to do and the things that i have to think about. and why did i even choose to do honours? was it just to sound smart, or just as an excuse to not get a full-time job? i'd rather work full-time at my work now.

i fail at being mentally strong and being able to cope with stress and pressure.

i cant quit. i wish i could.

it's not the sinking feeling i got as a child, but it's more a feeling of failing at the things i do. i have failed myself.

...i love my friends and smn for always being there [especially to reply to my smses~] because otherwise...i'd probably actually break down and cry. and then feel worse after that.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

2010-04-27T18:13:00.002+10:00

had a good weekend involving lots of shopping, fun with friends and clubbing.

today life seems to suck a lot.
i dont even wanna be at uni any more.
why is there so much work for me to do at work?
i dont understand.
i dont think i'll end up finding a job when i graduate. if i graduate.
i need sleep.

that's all.

fun day =D

2010-04-14T23:52:00.002+10:00

today's events and food:

- late to uni, read tradish chinese in class and didnt like it. -_-
- work! it was messy as. and lots of work piled up. this is what 1 week of no work does eh...? =T
- ate a cookie and had some tea.
- late lunch of...garlic prawn, feta cheese, tomato & sweet chilli pizza! for $9. but shared with dizygote x)
- baaaaaack to work but didnt do much but finished printing huge part of huge project. =D
- roam roam roam bought tix bought krn junk food and then...
- HOW TO TRAIN A DRAGON! imax! with yuen, nikki & jennifer ^^ [ate krn junk food & sushi~]
- it was goooood <3
- dessert @ max brenner. fondue! =D

no, my day did not involve much healthy food at all. wahahaha.

cold! D:

2010-04-11T10:58:00.004+10:00

jono's bday dinner yesturday at squire's loft! =]

it was a nice place...i'd actually walked past before...well...went in and come back out cos it was closing lolol. anyway. it was like, woah meat O_o so i ordered veggies XP

but...the cake was awesome! laurent ^^

so there's gonna be a family friend gathering/bbq thing at my house in like a few hrs. -_-" stupid weather and i need to do my work! yes that is my excuse for not wanting random ppl around and bombarding me with questions. yes i am a meanie emo kid.

so cold =( and still coughing. and UNI STARTS OMG AND I HAVENT FINISHED STUFF.

srh's bday invites are so prettyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy =]

and i want to go to a ball.

end blog post.

...i dont want a relapse.

cough cough cough cough.

2010-04-09T14:14:00.002+10:00

coughing = sore abs. hahaha i hope my abs are getting a good workout so i'll have abs like suwii one day =P

anyway! yesturday was a fatty day for me...had high tea with karen and isabel and my new friend vanessa who does optom with CATHODE =D
we went to langham for high tea...which was $35 for normal or $39 for choc indulgence =] it was good! we were so full after that x) photos are on fb, as usual, cos i'm too lazy to upload here...and my lumix batt died AGAIN so had to use isabel's camera and my phone camera ><" poopoo.

met up with dizygote yuen and gave him my $ bling necklace for him to wear to gaga concert hahaha =D and shopped for guy shoes but didnt see any nice ones like the ones we saw at aquila and politix...

at night it was time for joo's 21st dinner...belated much? hehe. anyway, got to talk to my old buddy xuning! best. cos we were besties and she still remembered so much about me x) and we went to sante for that so...i was like, already so full from lunch haha. but yeah i was a good girl, ate lots of leaves and not much carbs =]

after that...srh suwii and i roamed crown a bit x) and some car park drama and such and such and suwii drove me home! <3 thanks so much =] i know i should drive too but i'm really scared of killing people =(

currently at baillieu not doing work, obviously -_-"

havent properly seen smn in a while.

still sickies. but eh.

looking forward to cinderella album uploaaaaad x) and next photoshoot in 2 weeks!

that's it. seeing balwyns again 2moro! <3

x_X tired tired tired.

2010-03-30T18:35:00.002+11:00

omg so freakin tired i wanna sleep for 10 hrs please. i dont know why i'm tired.

failed to find bimbo's today. =(

pilgrim dress i wanted since last yr and on sale now didnt have any more size 8s.

i am so so so so behind on thesis research.

10 min chinese oral on thurs and i havent started anything.

two 2000 word essays due after easter holz.

cannot wait til thurs dinner/karaoke.

and another emo thought - if u say u're gonna do something, do it. otherwise dont say it please.

was very surprised and touched that mummy said something like...be happy and dont worry about what other people think of you before i left for work/uni. very random but eh.

and that is all. i miss a lot of faces.

so what do i do with this unforeseeable future? =T

2010-03-22T19:02:00.002+11:00

so i didnt see any friends today, hence i thought a lot about the usual issues.

uh, to be a translator/interpreter, i have to take those NAATI tests, which are $800ish and $600ish respectively. like wow, that's like...i dont know how many hours of work O_O and then i have to find a place that will hire me =T i dunno where either...i dont think i'd mind health stuff...

but then again. working for the govt would be easier maybe. i'll see if i get in. but dont want to move please. i cant be away from everyone. i'll be bored and lost and i'll forget things, emotions, feelings, and then i'll just feel blergh. and maybe even forget people. because i think i'm a bit of a robot and i dont miss things as much as other people do. so is it really better for my future? i dont think i can even last two weeks away from everyone. or someone. i dont even know. i'm such a confused bimboface.

in other news, i trained the newb at work today. and she's smart =] and fobby. hehehe.

and aunt and little cuz left today and i didnt even get to say goodbye. -_- cos yesturday i came home early to have dinner but wasnt early enough and they went home already, what a waste.

cooooos~ yesturday was nikki's bday karaoke thing at partyworld =D after a lot of shopping and money spending at dfo, i went to partyworld and met a couple of fobby girls hahaha. it was like, wow, they're all speaking mando, do i have to too? D: but yays i sang korean ^^ and must take nikki shopping when she's free, hehe.

okkkkkkkkkkk that's all for today, looking forward to spending a day with smn tomorrow cos i aint going to work and i cancelled my meeting with my thesis supervisor hehehe. ^^

uni work work work uni work work DINNER! =D

2010-03-19T01:06:00.003+11:00

my life has been very packed lately, with uni and work and uni and work, as the title states, lol. still unmotivated to do any research and stuff, hence work ($$$) cos it means doing something productive. but has been stressful and i'm pretty much in charge of this whole project. bendigo should thank me XP

in class today the other student killed a fly that he said looked like half a maggot cos it was a small one and he got its blood on the rubber at the back of his pacer =S murdererrrrr.

anyway! today was fun cos i met up with 2 friends for lunch...and one of them was sad cos of breakup and i was like, D: saaaaad. but not very good at comforting people...but it was good to sit there and listen and talk about deep stuff. hope she'll be ok...

and had awesome dinner with srh suwii nanda @ Match Bar & Grill @ QV! meat, wagyu burger, chips, mashed potato, grilled prawns and steak. =] bit meaty for me but still very enjoyable. and srh shouted us since she got paid x) thanks srhhhh <3 and after that we went to max brenner for choc pizza [omg vanuatu memories plz] and choc fondue for 2 [shared between 4 hehe]. and while walking there this fob guy holding a huge box walked past going SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY NEGA NEGA NEGA in really bad accent and i was like, is that what i think it's supposed to be...? O_o weirdest thing of the week, i swear, lolol.

mummy chen is back 2moro morn! which means no car to take me to train station which means bus to uni and i should be sleeping right now lolol. but no. oh well! maybe i will wag as it is my least favourite class. please.

and that is all =D

missed cathode today D:

much apologies, i am back. x)

2010-03-08T18:44:00.002+11:00

hello! sorry i havent been updating at all...guess i never felt like i had anything much to say about mah life. well apart from our epic docklands bbq and stuff.

soooo uni has started and honours is daunting but so far i am still being a bum and all is well =P i have yet to have an actual Chinese teacher from China...boo. but i like lewis and another teacher is alright too =] someone motivate me to start researching! ><

today i decided that i will apply for grad jobs afterall, just in case they think a masters degree would be like...over-qualified for those jobs i guess. and it doesnt hurt too much to try. hence, i am in the process of applying for the dFAAAAAT [dept of foreign affairs and trade, and i like it cos it has FAT in it], and the dept of immigration and citizenship...HOWEVER those jobs are most likely in canberra so i will have to leave and that will be death. but anyway.

looking forward to wednesday, dinner with my besties <3

and my ceiling was leaking last night x_X

back from shanghai. =]

2010-01-31T01:09:00.003+11:00

hello, fellow aussie bogans~ i am back from my adventure in shanghaiiiii =]

just got back from the airport and had to get on msn and blog cos didnt have internet for DAYS AND DAYS. apart from the 3 times i went on wifi @ the 2nd hotel i stayed at...until the ipod touch battery died x_X

anyway! i went to shanghai city, kunshan, xishan and suzhou. which is all around shanghai city.

shanghai:
stayed there for about 3 days. had my own room with a double bed and everything at a hotel! =D and it wasnt as cold as i expected, much better than beijing. anywayyyyy, grandpa had someone he knows take us around and organise everything for us, so everything was freeeeee ^^v which was awesome.

so i think we went to the cemetery first, to kow tow and burn fake money for grandpa's relatives and such...but i didnt really want to go or kow tow to people i dont know =T well i met grandpa's sister once and i loved her so...that was alright. and plus his parents arent even buried there -_- so i kow towed to some rocks. boo.

and we went to the oriental pearl tower thing, where i walked on the glass up in the air and it would've been so much better than the eureka thing lolol. and also went to hyatt to have a coffee cos cloud 9 didnt open til 5 pm D: cos i really wanted to go to Cloud 9.

foodwise. xiao long tang bao, which the shangys call tang bao [soup buns, that is]. the crab ones were amaaaazing =D and we also dined at the very top of a tall building...it was like, just one room with a table and us eating there and being served like 7 courses or something [but that was with someone of a higher status than the guy who took us around hahaha] mmm. photos will be on fb once i get the time to upload ^^ ah i love rich people.

also saw MANY relatives of grandpa/mummy's, and found out mummy has cousins in their 60s, and it felt weird calling them uncle and aunty cos i wanted to call them grandma and grandpa =X but they were awesome and cooked SO MUCH FOOD it was like O_O wah. and it was really good!

kunshan:
so grandpa knows this dude who owns restaurants and hotels there. hence, free hotel stay yet again. i had a room with a single bed AND a double bed hahaha. winnnn. and we had good food =] and the boss dude had a really cute poodle! x) uh... we visited some countryside places he's still building...and went to see a huge guanyin...the female buddhist thingy...and yeh. it was a tad boring =T but free wifi in the lobby of hotellll XD

xishan:
it was near kunshan i think...went to a taoist temple or something, climbed some stairs and a tad sore at the moment =] hahaha and went in a CAVE! but mummy didnt let me climb a dangerous looking bit ='(

zhouzhuang:
i think it's a part of suzhou, no idea. =T anyway. just an old village town thing, i dont like these places lololol. but went there as a last touristy place before leaving shanghai and yeh...nothing to report. apart from it being pretty cold.

that's it! shall not blog too much or it will turn into a huge essayyyy x) laterrrrz~

honky birthland funnnnnn =D

2010-01-25T16:38:00.005+11:00

so after an uncomfortable flight and hardly any sleep on my cathay plane...because man behind me was snoring and there were a babies crying [i vow to not take my baby, if/when i have a baby, on a plane unless it was absolutely inevitable that we had to travel. lolol.] and i arrived at hk yesturday morning! =]

plane news:
food was edible, movies were alright but i only finished watching the Time Traveller's Wife and it wasnt as bad as some ppl said it was...i heart rachel mcadams and it was really sweet ^^ and fell asleep during This Is It. lolol. anyway, saw a friend (actually, sharon's friend, vita =P) on the plane too. ehe. and as soon as i got off the plane, it smelt like hong kong. well one of the main smells of hk, which is like...油煙, like the restaurant oily smell. or so daddy said. but i've missed the many smells of hk, both the good and the bad ones x)

home...ish:
i think i know hk a little better each time i come back =] well since i came back in 2008 anyway, aha. got back and didnt sleep or anything, and went to sushi train with parents and it was AMAZINGGGGG. pffft sif tomodachi. lolol. like, unagiiii and so much scallop sushi, both seared and raw. and FREE MACHA! which is amusing cos it's so freakin expensive to buy a tiny tub in melb.

causeway bay, my fave place to shop in hk:
went with mummy who took me to Peach John! cos i heart peach john. =] took us a while to find it tho, but i bought stuff. and no, u dont need to know what i bought ;) also got FILA trackies! shockers, since i dont think i even own trackies, or at least a matching jacket and pant set. also, found a 'boys are stupid, throw rocks at them' tank top AT LAST. and even tho it wasnt cheap, i absolutely HAD to buy it x) oh, and i got a new bag. a gold one, again. =] time to throw away my thailand bag!

dinner:
so last time mum, grandpa and some other person went to a restaurant they got a voucher for a free steamed fish [yes, believe it.] so we went there for dinner. and they have the most amazing char siew (ahem, bbq pork if u aint chinesey enough to know what it is =P) there and grandpa LOVES it. ehe. but i dont eat that stuff. so i ordered scallops, which was really really good =D and it was heartbreaking how the fish was fail =( but hey, it was free.

today:
woke up and refused to eat the cake mum bought. because little cake slices at maxim's and other common bakeries look good but dont taste that awesome =T but i ate a whole packet of dried mangoes ^^ went out to Pacific Cafe and bought expensive coffee...it was like, $35HKD for a grande cappuccino i think? which is like $5AUD and it was like a fail coffee in melb. but! it was nice there, and most ppl spoke english, and the mags were good and FREE WIFI thanks v. much.

i miss nambawan.

ok! that's it! i'll be heading off to shanghai tonight and coming back to hk on the 30th Jan. so probs wont have internet there or anything. i hope it aint too cold there =(

miss y'all, wish u were here.

flying off! =]

2010-01-23T15:59:00.003+11:00

i am flying off at 1:05 am on the 24th Jan, which is tomorrow! but i gotta get to the airport tonight. =]

will be in hk, then shanghai, then some mountain city near shanghai, then guangzhou/hk for the rest of the trip. weeeeeee~

hasnt really hit me yet and i dont think i've packed everthing, so i should be doing this now, but hey, havent blogged in a while x)

anyway, recent events:

- linda's 21st @ charlie's bar. it was pretty but very dark. and the cake was amazing =] and pity we couldnt hear cat and anita's speech =( and i wore my guess black dress just for srh. and smn didnt approve ;)

- sunnyridge roadtrip thing with srh, suwii, cat & smn [our driver, aha]. picked strawberries, ate awesome ice-cream. and then went to Safety Beach. and got sunburnt on the already sunburnt shoulder cos i fell asleep in the car on the way back and didnt re-apply sunscreen x_X

- cafe giraffe with karen! i think it will be our new fave hangout this year. it's such a cute little place with awesome interior designing and ikea stuff =] and cheap food! lunch is less than $9 and we got chicken lasagne [with a salad on the side] and mushroom risotto~

- international kahootsing with nanda to get srh flowers. it was a bit late cos of fail communication, but we did it =] happy.

- and hanging out at smn's house. annnnd what else uh...lots of eating hehehe.

came to realise that mental confusion/pain can actually cause physical pain and unexplained physical symptoms. usually better at handling mental pain, but not this time, i suppose.

okies, better pack more stuff. and my laptop is dying =( shuts off randomly or doesnt turn on even though it's plugged in. gahhhhh.

missing everyone already. <3

bla bla bla bla bla...

2010-01-16T13:28:00.002+11:00

so anyway. yesturday was jn's 21st party at softbelly, and it was fun =]

the theme was like...prisoner/jail/criminal...which was surprising O_o but i hate stripes with a passion so i went as a gangstaaaaaa =D and i wore the hat srh got me for my bday one year ^^

so i baked the cakes, took me about 5.5 hrs of baking and decorating and only got 3.5 hrs sleep cos had work, but it was worth it! and i was wide awake and fully concentrating ^^ would never be able to concentrate like that if i was studying, hahaha XD anyway, they were chocolate fairy cakes with vanilla buttercream [some had choc vanilla buttercream ^^]. some of them had letters on them that spelt 'happy 21st birthday jane' and the rest were lion heads =D made about 45 of them altogether~

speeches were awesome. and games confused me. and smn made a shoe out of playdoh and it was pretty cute. we got jn encounter with lion @ melb zoo passes. 2 of them. but she's not allowed to take us cos we'd get jealous of the one who's going so she has to take someone else...*winks*...wahahahahaha. please jn, it would please us so. =P and also got tim tams. and 3D animal playing cards [which i found and bought ^^]

so in other news...

- i hate unimelb. turns out i didnt even apply for honours/masters cos the online app had to be printed out and i had to supply some stuff and send/hand it all in and i didnt do that so i did it yesturday and now i have to wait for 2nd and 3rd round x_X i will be killed if i dont get in.
- back to work! i finally got a key to work. but pay has not risen and i refuse to ask boss to give me more money cos i hate asking for money.
- grandparents leaving on monday =(
- leaving for hk/china on the 24th Jan.
- going to barbarino's + wong tonight =D

because suwii & srh told me to ^^

2010-01-11T23:04:00.002+11:00

oki update!

things i've been doing:

hilton night as my bday pressie with srh, suwii, jn, cat, jono & smn. was awesome =] and so pretty. thanks much!

torquay, double dating with karen & vincent ^^ perfect weather, relaxing strolls along the beach. and stumbled across a nude beach cos we went exploring, looking for another beach to go to. hahaha. XD

43 degrees. stayed at home and did nothing...got too bored so cooked some prawns with teriyaki sauce...and carrots and baby corn =] and smn came, and we watched The Matrix and The Matrix Reloaded cos we are such nerds. 8)

that's all! missing my melons. let's do something again soon! =D

almost nye...O_o

2009-12-30T23:18:00.002+11:00

apparently it is the anniversary of the first day of the tsinghua summer course. so yay for eliza, jess and shaz! and other beijing buddies. i miss it so. D=

anyway. went to dfo south wharf with daddy chen today cos had nothing better to do -_-"
and bought the most awesome tank top everrrrr for $10 and i shall show the world what it looks like later =] and a dress from forever new, and some underwear...but no one needs to know about that, of course =X

~ah. my room is nice and cool cos of the aircon. i laugh at the ppl with no aircon! mwehe~

in other news, i got an ipod touch from smn for chrissy! =D havent started fiddling with it yet tho, scared of scratching or dropping it O_o

also, my love and obsession for pokemon cards has been rekindled. cos i got smn a box of pokemon cards for chrissy. XD

cant WAIT til hilton night! it's gonna be so epic. =D i miss suwii cos i havent seen her since R2! pwoar. such a long time =O

also majorly missing karen...havent seen her in EVEN LONGERRRRRR. WAY LONGERRRRR D= but next week, definately!

annnnd that's it, really, not doing much 2moro either, poop. just family time i spose. *shrugs*.

happy boxing day! =D

2009-12-26T00:56:00.002+11:00

it's smn's bday today =]
happy bday smn!
(not that he reads this.)
but it will be the first time i spend his bday with him, and it shall be fun. we're goin shopping~~~

got back from R2 on chrissy eve, was still on a high with srh hehehe. too much R2 fun to type in a blog, hence refer to photos on fb please XD brought back some souveniors, shells, such and such. and KAVA. and gave shells to grandma for her bday, which is on chrissy day. =)

my little cuz and aunty also got back on the same day, and he's sooo cute ^^ and is much better at speaking now.

went to the annual family friend gathering today for a huge feast, ate a bit too much eh =X and there were like 6 dogs! love it ^^

didnt really get chrissy pressies, apart from a pressie from my friend in singapore and a red packet from my aunty, but that's ok, i dont usually do chrissy pressies anyway ^^"

all tanned, sunburnt, bug-bitten, coral-cut and fat now. so shall detox and heal up and all that...ehhhh ><"

that is all. =)

vanuatuuuuu~

2009-12-18T17:21:00.002+11:00

wireless internet in motel is really retarded...so...will keep this short =X

so we arrived yesturday, on the 17th =) had to get up at like 3:30 am to get our sydney plane and such and such. air hostess doing announcement was so unprofessional, lol, was giggling so hard another person had to finish it XD. think it was delayed, cos had to run to final call, after we only went to TRS [fail at getting tax back cos receipt had smn's name on it, lolol.] and got drinks at gloria jeans...but anyway. trip was only 3 hrs 20 mins, apparently ^^

so there were ppl singing when we arrived at the airport, as expected =) and we had to get the 'bus' back to City Motel, and the buses are pretty much just vans with number plates with a B at the front, lolol. =D but tis awesome. and i dont really understand the locals' english =X

met suwii's physio buddy, tara, who is awesome and really nice =] roamed a bit, srh got coconut bra! got bus, then ferry to erakor island, and the view was totally AMAZING! took lots of photos, watched the sunset and ate at Roxy's...i got pumpkin soup and it was really good ^^ but we had to wait aaaaaaages for our food. so hungry, seriously.

18th dec.
so today we woke up fairly early, cos we slept early and all. went to the physio place and met winnie~ and roamed more, and it actually rained a bit. XD and went to Au Peche Mignon, some choc cafe thingy for lunch...and had quiche =) and went to market for corn, mangoes and suwii's favourite...wait for it...TULUK! which is like chinese zhong zi but tastes diff and has beef in it...and tapioca instead of rice, apparently.

currently waiting in suwii & tara's room for the dude in charge of the island tour to come get the money and have a talk about the tour 2moro -_-" but going off to dinner at No.1 Cafe and watching Ice Age 3 for dinner...wee! also, just watched 500 Days of Summer, and tara and i hate it. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

cant upload photos on fb. fail. what a pain. ok i out. laterz. =)

1 day left.

2009-12-16T03:27:00.002+11:00

omg. so excited. 1 more day! it hasn't even hit me yet. but. VANUATU HERE WE COME!

today was an epic day.

had lunch with srh, jn & cat @ bluefire and it was awesome! it was like, all-you-can-eat-meat, pretty much. and with some bread and dip and veggies =) and awesome desserts.

had much fun shopping at dockies =D

met up with smn later..bought an LV wallet...roamed city a bit. SO TIRED OMGAH. lol. and then had dinner at bopha devi ^^ which was also yummy. but was too full from lunch anyway. hahaha.

fail restaurants: liquid, because no Super Tuesdays in Dec. kobe jones, cos booked out. omgah as if other ppl like kobe jones that much -_-"

packing, and seriously think i'll forget something. ><"

that is all, photos up on fb. =)

yet another one of cat's quizzes.

2009-12-06T23:48:00.004+11:00

i had an AWESOME day @ Mt Dancenong with Karen, Vincent & smn. but too tired to spaz about it cos it'll be like an epic 1000 word essay XD [hence, refer to fb if u wanna know~]

if you married the last person that texted you what would your last name be?
tsai. um...wah? =P

do you know anyone named Molly?
nope...but...molly...weasley? XD

what smiley face do you use often?
=)

honestly, have you ever eaten raw cookie dough?
i dont think so...

who’s texted you in the past 24 hours?
smn, nd, krn, lnd, srh, chh. and daddy chen. and i dont like vowels that much lolol.

who were you with Saturday night?
last nite? was with eliza, shaz & jess for a bit, then family for dinner...then no one. cos i couldnt go out. -_-

what is bothering you?
the usual issues.

what’s your favorite kind of ice cream?
tiramisu. green tea with red bean. melona.

are any of your friends taller than you?
manyyyyyy. D:

do you like hugs?
only from certain people, thanks.

what are you listening to right now?
so you can spend all you wanna, dolce and gabbana~ YES PLEASE!
lol. Jay Sean - If I Ain't Got You.

who’s the last person you talked to on the phone?
karen =D

feel like talking to someone you haven’t in a while?
cant think of anyone. dont feel like talking at the moment. =T

who was the first person you talked to today?
mumbled a hello to grandpa chen, i believe.

has anyone ever sang to you?
TO me? not really. D:

has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
yes =)

how was your weekend?
AWESOME. well 80% awesome. =) made awesome by...eliza, sharon, jess, karen, vincent, smn & srh.

will you be up before seven am tomorrow?
only if i cant sleep well and wake up too early. probs about 30% chance of that happening...=S

what is something you disliked about your day?
not ending up high-tea-ing cos i had to get home by 5:30 =( and a friend not being happy.

how late did you stay up last night?
uh...1:30ish.

when you’re home alone do you still close the door when you shower?
and also lock it. ^^

can you remember the last time you really liked someone?
right now thanks.

what were you doing at 10 last night?
forgot...msn? fb? watching Coffee Prince. probably eating ice-cream.

were you in a good mood last night?
sorta. =)

when was the last picture you took?
probs about 3 hrs ago. of food @ wedding dinner. hahaha.

would you ever dye your hair red?
i've already done so. haha. ^^

what are you doing for valentines day?
pigging out in china or hk, i believe. or shopping. =P

done! off now.

...long time no blog.

2009-12-04T19:10:00.002+11:00

13 days until escape to paradise.

yeah been lazy and retarded so havent blogged recently.

main thought of past couple of days: happyish when out, feels like being in a depressing black bottomless pit when at home.

so tuesday was karen's 21st! =D and fail friend me couldnt really think of anything thoughtful enough to get...but we got a waffle maker and hair straightener =) party was at chi lounge, lots of friends went and was awesome funnnn ^^v and smn and i both brought big D90s along lolol. so pretty nervous during my speech...but hope it wasnt too fail =X and shaz also made a speech. the other speeches were really nice =] and i love jess. my dress was glittery so i kinda left a trail of gold glitter behind me wherever i went so...if there's glitter @ chi lounge, it'll be because of me XD hehehehehe. pity i didnt get to sing much with karen tho D: but hope she had an AWESOME time.

yesturday, thursday, met up with Shi Ann =D who i havent properly hung out with since like...high school? but had looooots of fun shopping for dresses and such, and we still have so much in common and we had quite an epic D&M session ^^ and before we knew it, she had to leave D: so kyah. and then it was time for dinner @ box hill with bhs girlies...took a while to decide but ended up going to indochine...but without suwiiiii =( and food was good and cheap~ OA meeting win.

today...went shopping @ chaddy for like the 2nd time in my life? i dont remember the last time tho...so it was probably the 1st. i dont even know O_o. anyway. it's huge and awesome =) but still waiting for miu miu to open. so i went shopping with anita & linda. hunted for guy's wallets, cross pendants, biotherm homme stuff, floral sunnies...and those were the main things of the day. fun =) but i'm very broke so didnt buy anything.

2moro, going to eliza's, but probs need to take grandparents to uni before that cos they wanna see it i guess...erm. yeah.

i miss arman and suwii lots.

home on a friday night again. because of this disfunctional family. and no, i dont want to make an effort, because it'll piss me off more. i am a fail family member.

got lots to do next week thoooo. sunday: ROAD TRIP! with karen, vincent & smn YAYYYYYYYYYY. but gotta get home before 5:30 so i can go to a wedding dinner. monday: work. tuesday: will be filled up with something, i'm sure. wednesday: lunch with a friend...and so on. not enough time to do everything and see everyone, seriously.

wishing for world peace and world happiness and sparkly things~

2009-11-30T10:56:00.004+11:00

but life ain't as good as that. darn it. just can't escape it.

my life is better than lots of other ppl's, so i shouldn't be complaining, but i'm very confused. and the biggest question is...WHY?

ANYWAY. i just had my H1N1 vaccine, and my arm feels weak XD secretly hoping i suddenly develop a fever so i can have a legitimate excuse to not go to work today. seriously. and don't have much to look forward to today. stupid centrelink and work. RETARD. but waiting for a call from smn. =]

yesturday was Julia's 21st Party, so hung out with srh for pretty much the whollllle day. like, almost 12 hrs =D much fun! including shopping @ northies, kfc [omg golden gaytime krusher is so awesome lol~], sitting in the car in a park cos was scared of getting stuff in car stolen by random bogans [still can't figure out WHAT they were doing, seriously], watching Hairspray, getting dressed up as a Chinese and a Roman goddess, srh's awesome gift-wrapping, and then going to the actual party =D and everyone was pretty dressed up! and julia was totally stunning ^^ and srh and i ate a lot and camwhored a lot. and smsed a lot. lol. AND we also sang Art of Love at least 5 times yesturday. BEST BEST BEST XD [and still singing it right now. hehe. cos we're gonna make, our mistakes...find out how much ur heart can take it~]

julia's speeches, especially the ones by parents and ai-mee...were so touching. it was like, woahhhhh so much love! =] and my group failed at the julia quiz. boooo ><" but srh was so pro eh? =P

went to jn's for a random house visit and one of us told the other two a nice story. =)

got suwii's R2 number but she hasn't replied yet =T

SIXTEEN DAYS.

cos i'm thinkin' boutchu. <3

2009-11-29T12:20:00.003+11:00

Dearest K,

letting u know, i'm always here for u, and i wish u'd be happy all the time. but life isn't as easy as that, so we'll just have to live through it and hope that we may learn from it.

we can't all think the same way because we're all different, and there are people who should know us better than they do. there's probably not much we can do about that, but there are those who do understand us perfectly, and love us for who we are without any complaints.

i love u and admire you for who u are, and even though i can't know exactly how u feel, i'll always try to understand.

if u're ever having a hard time, i'm here to listen, though i might not be able to do much to help.

so just hang in there, ok?

missing u, can't wait to see u very soon. =]

suffocation and boredom.

2009-11-28T22:53:00.002+11:00

quiz stolen from srh...ehe. =)

would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
if they really sincerely wanted me to and it would help them, i guess.

what would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
freeze.

did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
physically or mentally? i dunno, probably not.

are you good at hiding your feelings?
most of the time. don't like showing too much feeling.

explain the last time you threw up:
uh, food poisoning i think.

last thing that made you cry:
Massimo's proposal in The Wedding Planner. hahaha. <3

do you have a bad temper?
probably...

do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
yes please.

how many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
zero. and i am glad.

how often do you think about suicide?
i don't keep track.

what is your deepest fear?
that shall remain a secret.

do you REALLY love all your family?
not ALL. but most.

did you reject or accept your last friend request?
accept, got scared, then removed. don't even ask.

was the last person you hugged a male or female?
male. ehe ^^

are you taller than your mum?
exactly the same height =(

do you find it hard to trust others?
i often do.

last compliment you received?
i have nice eyes. ^^"

what did you wish for on your birthday?
won't come true if i tell u =P

were you single on your last birthday?
YES. =P

would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
booooo. that would be uber faillllll. i don't think so.

are you scared to fall in love?
nope. =)

has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
yes <3

when you say you 'dont care' do you mean it?
most of the time, yeh.

are you sarcastic?
sometimes.

the last time you really laughed?
laughed really hard? i don't remember...

what hurts right now?
ankles. arthritis. -_-"

is your hair naturally curly or straight?
wavy. why was that not included in the question? >=(

do you usually apologize first?
only if i know i'm really wrong.

do you still watch movies on VCR?
a wah? ewwwww. no.

do people ever call you by your last name?
do it and die. ok not die, but be ignored for the rest of ur life.

have you ever fallen asleep thinking about a boy/girl?
of course~

ever felt like you're not good enough?
many times.

do you miss anyone?
a few people.

do you think two people can last forever?
yes.

when was the last time you held hands with someone?
um...thursday. =)

does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment?
sometimes =X

is there a person you look at and automatically smile?
not really, i don't automatically smile at anything/anyone.

when was the last time you were unhappy with your life?
last night. woah i'm really emo O_o

do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever?
no thanks. but i'd like parts of it should stay this way =)

can you recall the last time you liked someone?
like, now? =P

who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
honestly? i can't think of anyone.

did your parents spoil you as a child?
i guess so~

where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009?
beijing. houhai. it was FREEZING.

what do you feel weird without?
phone, ipod.

do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
both. i use like 3 different ones.

how many hours of sleep did you get last night?
5-6 usually. don't need/want much.

do you like funny people or serious people?
people who can be both.

what are you listening to?
All or Nothing - Jay Sean. thought i'd be the only one to make you smile~

do you sing in the car?
rarely. only when i'm with people i'm comfortable singing to. and with.

have you ever cried from being so mad?
yeah and it didn't make me feel better at all.

expecting something to change in the next month?
VANUATU!

have you talked about marriage with another person?
srh. many many many times. =)

could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly?
depends how badly, but probably. but never close friends.

are you proud of who you are?
sometimes.

do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?
yes, if i ain't talking to anyone.

you're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?
thank you, i love you.

...to your worst enemy?
[i wouldn't waste my breath.]

do you care if people hate you?
yes.

name one moment where you couldn't control your rage:
i don't remember the last time.

name one moment where you sincerely wanted to just die:
either didn't have a moment like that, or don't remember.

For the last one, just say anything you want, anything at all:
vanuatu R2 holiday beach suwii srh sunshine happiness escape PLEASE.

aight. that's it! i'm pretty emo eh? =S

my life was awesome a few hours ago and now it sucks.

2009-11-27T20:07:00.002+11:00

A;SDLKFJAS;DLFKJA;SLDKFJA SDF wth.

dad is sick. have to stay home. cos i'm the only one who can look after him. and i hate responsibilities but i feel guilty at the same time. i wanted to go out tonight. but now i cant.

someone i want to run away from but cant tried to add me on fb and fb messaged me. if i ignore it might make things awkward but if i dont i'll be scared forever and ever and ever.

but before all this my day was good.

shoppo 3 times in 4 days wahhhhh O_O i need somewhere else to go...i think? =S

missing suwii, wishing i was there, away from all of this.

glad smn has car and d90 and is happy with them.

sorry to ppl i was gonna see tonight cos was SO looking forward to going out and havent gone clubbing since like AGES AGO.

i dont like being angry at people, but i am.

i really need a hug right now.

someone empty my brain of thoughts, please. please?

in other news, watching ANTM cycle 13 and loving it cos the models are shorrrrrrt. i wish i was a model. eh.

that is all i'm really retarded right now and i shall do a more sane blog next time.

*has doof doof music on really loud*

...i'm still trying to not mess up. [Art of Love - Guy Sebastian & Jordin Sparks]

2009-11-23T20:21:00.004+11:00

sunday:

tea party with musos =) was awesome. jess made so many amazing things all by herself...it was quite epic! i brought the d90 to take pics. ^^ much fun and discussion, and gossiping =D
went out with family for dinner @ dae jang geum in chinatown, so good <3

monday:
woke up uber grumpy cos...dad wanted me to sleep more and i slept too much and didnt wake up in time to go to work at the time i wanted to...so was mean all morning. =( i feel bad. anyway, after work i was walking to the tram stop and saw karen! <3

met up with my long lost friends, helen & joo. and we were black and grey together. goth kids. hahahaha. =] joo bought a tie, but none of us knew how to tie one properly. shopped at dockies! introduced them to movenpick, then had mocha. i love the waiters at The Coffee Club @ dockiez...they're so nice! especially the curry guys. =D designers' house is awesommmmme too.

and have yet to come up with a name for joo & qiqi's t-shirt brand. =) but excited. cos joo said she'd make a vampire-ish line just for meeeeee ^^

'cos i'm still learnin the art of love, i'm still tryin to not mess up...so whenever i stumble let me know. you need to spell it out...

listening to Art of Love. don't think i'll get sick of it for some time. lyrics are like...so...meaningful...?

in other news, mummy was published in the online hk reader's digest. but had to convert tradish to simplified to read it ^^"

suwii is back! need to see her before she leaves for vanuatu. need to see lots of people, now that everyone is free. well almost everyone. soon to be everyone. i need to get used to not trying to fill my days with whatever i can to not feel lonely, now that the people i love most are free or soon to be free...

i want a miu miu dress. maybe that one.

and that is all for today.

hating this weather...=T

2009-11-22T10:42:00.003+11:00

friday...
handed in my last BA assignment EVER. then was gonna visit cat but but had no time and then both cat and diane asked me if i wanted to lunch and i was like, nawwwww i cant =(
still find it weird how when i'm free no one asks me out and when i'm meeting someone other people also ask me out on the same day lolol. and as srh said...why doesn't the world revolve around me? why? LOL.
anyway, met up with linda & joe and trained to brighton and didnt know which brighton to get off at and took ages to find out how to get to the beach. and by the time we went there the wind was CRAZY and we almost got blown over. fail. got picked up by yeng, and we somehow all ended up at chaddy carpark, waited for meena's car then they decided to go to monash caulfield instead. errrrrrrr. lol. but at least we got there and ate lots =) and hardeep got an awesome cake from david jones~
weather was so retarded i was a bit dizzy. and all that indecisiveness and travelling tired me out =( but i hope meena had a good bday anywway =]

saturday...
nothing much to report. apart from realising that...my Bachelor of Arts degree has been the source of the degradation of my artistic talents. i can no longer sing, dance, draw, play piano, play violin, or any of that as well as i used to any more. nowhere near. =( ironic, sad, but true.

sunday...
tea party at the hillman household! very excited. =) bringing my choc fondue fountain that yuen & hin got me for my 21st! ^^

cannot wait until karen is free. XD 3 days? i think =]
also cannot wait until suwii comes back for like 2/3 days and we go out and eat! and start food blog, finally, i hope? =P

in other news. a new song i discovered and like. Maybe by Jay Sean.
an excerpt:

I'm always connected online
Hooked on Facebook all the time
Hoping you've checked my profile
Just can't help wondering why
You play it cool cos
I'm hopelessly falling for you

lolol. best. seriously. and the song sounds good too. LOLOLOL. <3

also. have had many randoms add me on fb recently. and got a random email saying nothing but...*poke*. like, what? who are u? aha.

hate this weather. i want the sun back. i want to go to the beach on a sunny day thanks. but! i like the rain when i'm going to sleep. or...cuddling? =)

yet another random discovery: MVs of korean boybands i've been downloading/watching/following...always have the guys wearing eyeliner. AND I LIKE IT <3

- Lil'.

happiness ^^

2009-11-20T00:10:00.010+11:00

very happy today. cos of freeeeeeedom =)

highlights of my day:

- watched New Moon and it pwned the first Twilight movie. dakota looks old. i love their contacts <3 also, buff werewolves. when the camera was just on jacob's abs i was like, woah O_O but he's a tad young lol.

- expensive cars parked around MC. i'd love to hang out with a group of uber rich kids one day just like...as a social experiment kinda thing. lol.

- RING DING DONG. still obsessed, seriously. i listened to it at least 50 times yesturday and i'm still not sick of it yet. if minho and taemin were like 3 or 4 yrs older, i'd totally like them. but no. soz. and the song sorta reminds me of crazy frog except i HATE crazy frog =S

- gelati @ dockiez. =)

- singing in the car with someone who cant sing in tune. lolol.
- looking forward to seeing meeeeeeena 2moro @ her 21st~

and yesturday i was traumatised so i didnt say why i was so freakin scared but.

sms from my boss @ 10:09 pm:

"i miss u...xx"

uh. scarred for life. i hope he sent it to the wrong person and/or was drunk. please. i repeat, from my boss with a wife and kids. didnt feel like going to work today but need money so it was like just me and him at work and i was extra quiet. dot dot dot.

so tired i fell asleep in car. but shower woke me up. a bit. lol.

need to get up earlyish 2moro to hand in last assignment everrrrrr and then maybe visit cat and then train to beach. fun! dunno what to wear in thunderstorm weather. uhhhhh.

thoughts...?

- seriously too tired to think of much, except that i like to make my life seem more dramatic than it actually is and it makes my brain go funny. but at the moment i love it.

- so i really like high places and i wanna go on a ferris wheeeeeel. or go to grampians cos i havent been there for like a YEAR, i swear. ok maybe less but it feels like AAAAAAAAAAAAAGES. i love it when i stand on the edge of a cliff cos it's like i can almost fly. but i might die if i trip or something. lol i'm weird.

- need. sleep. or. coffee.

<3.

3 yrs of my BA. done. =O

2009-11-19T00:59:00.003+11:00

just finished last essay of the bachelor of arts at unimelb. wahhhhhh. [well it's crap but hopefully lewis likes me enough to give me another H1 ^^"]

i feel odd...O_o but hey, i'm returning next year. and with this laziness i have no clue if i can get into honours or not. pretty sure i can get into the masters though, but will be spending parents' savings for that...um...=X

totes did nothing today. went to law and nerded a bit. and saw vi! ^^

tall asian dude walking past in law library had natural wind-in-the-hair and i was like, woah. =O and i have to try so hard. sorta. haha. XD

lookingforward to meena's beach party on friday! and hopefully some clubbing on friday night and/or saturday...hmmz...

miss suwii, but smsed her and got a reply today so yay =)

in other news. i am so. freakin. scared. but will not say here. oh. em. gee. save me please. where are u srh? karen? smn? =(

gelati. shopping. errrrrrr.

2009-11-17T23:44:00.002+11:00

nerded, saw michael d @ baillieu and was like woah, hi stranger! diane came to find me and we did nothing [i.e., go on fb, talk about stuff, discuss krn actors, disrupt random dude on the same table who was sleeping but it was his fault for moving to my table for no reason and eating starburst snakes in front of me while i was hungry bla bla bla bla bla] lol. also, diane knows someone we know but didn't like her since she was like in primary school. wow. likes.

went shopping for a tad, met up with suwii. and then went to MENYA! cos suwii likes it there. and i do too. and srh does too. food was good and cheap! we sat on the grass in front of state and had damp butts when we got up. XD

shopped for a dress for diane. and she got one! yes, diane finally shopped with me and got a cheap but nice dress. winnnnn~ $20.

bridge rd with suwii cos visit srh @ epworth. srh has crocs. we went to fritz, and replaced arman with suwii, but he won't be eating gelati in melb when he comes back anyway, pch =P mmm. raspberry & panna cotta, hazelnut & mandarin gelati <3

dinner with fam @ san choi! =) saw mum's tafe friend's son & other tafe friend...and the kid called me 'sis' in canto XD hahaha. and he's like 20. nice. =D although i feel old. but respect for elders ftw. kekeke. yarra blvd for sunset watchin/bird listening.

smn wanted to drag me out to watch meteor shower at like 3-4ish am, but can't really see it in melb anyway and daddy chen wouldn't let me =(

thoughts:
- listening to leona lewis' new album. likes. sorta.
- gossiping isnt that great, i've realised. it may seem fun while u're doing it but...what if someone was gossiping about u? would u want someone else to know about ur business? i would rather tell ppl to their faces about my life and thoughts, instead of having it passed on without my knowledge. but having said that, not too fussed, i guess.
- when u find something out about a close friend but she didn't tell u about it herself, how are u supposed to ask her about it?
- didn't know there was a time limit in hoyts online booking.
- diane knows how sneaky/subtle i really am. =X
- if u ain't on fb, u don't exist. no, really, i don't know u. lolol. jk jk. but...yes.

much love.

wide awake at 2:30 AM.

2009-11-17T02:14:00.004+11:00

sunday: dfo south wharf with family, guess dress for $40, peter alexander shoes for $19.50. SO MUCH LOVE. and also, eureka for the 2nd time of my life. =) wish i lived there.

aha. camwhore much =X aaaaaanyways. i like high places.

i want to stand at the edge of a cliff, look up at the sky, look down at the sea or mountains...almost flying...

monday: work for 4 hrs by myself, no tea or cookies at work =( boo. met up with jess & shaz and went to cafenatics for a...wait for it...STRONG LONG BLACK! which i didnt dare ask for cos it's like what, 3 shots of coffee? and a bit weird. but yay i got one anyway! lolol. best. XD and ate jess' food cos i eat everyone's food =X thanks jess! hahaha ><" did a bit of nerding at law and...almost fell asleep while standing up on the train cos...was that tired. O_o maybe...caffeine made me all energetiiiiic [BoA song. ftw.] and then drained all of my energy. =S

seeing suwii 2moro. excite! <3

thoughts...

why is that sometimes...the more we can't have something, the more we want it?
sometimes...hypocrites deserve a break, because...maybe the things they say but can't do...are just things they're trying to change themselves but have not succeeded in yet.
if i'm forever angry at someone for this little thing and that other thing...then i'll never want to see that person, so i should stop being angry. a difficult feat, but i shall try.
bircher muesli is my new food discovery. <3
i haven't baked in too long. seriously. O_o soz i haven't baked brownies or cookies for u in so long, srh!

an eventful saturday. =)

2009-11-14T20:29:00.000+11:00

did not expect today to be eventful at all, but it was! went with cuz & dad to get their haircuts, was so bored waiting in car that i camwhored. O_o

hi. i like huge cheapo sunnies.

aaaaaaaaaaanyway. went to bh to buy azn grocery stuff. and knew srh was there waiting for ppl to get haircuts too. and while i was missing her and all she came from behind me outta nowhere! <3

went to shoppo to stalk hot hot but didnt see him. they bought tix to Time Traveller's Wife and i couldnt so...jealous much =( and we also did lots of dress shopping =D also, janey knows more about my life than most of my friends. i guess we have to be besties now eh? =P

bussed home. boredom. i like century egg. watched 27 dresses cos srh was talking about it today and i've been watching wedding movies recently.

i don't believe in fate. i don't believe in love at first sight (like the Blue song i am currently obsessed with, hahaha.). am i too bitter?

and yet another quiz. just cos i'm bored and procrastinating.

What are you listening to right now?

Art of Love (Guy Sebastian & Jordin Sparks). because it ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it.

Have you ever eaten sushi?

i would eat it every day if i could ^^v

What is bothering you?

too many things to mention.

Do you have somebody you can tell anything to?

srh, suwii, karen, yuen.

Expecting something to change in the next month?

i expect things to get better.

What was the highlight of your day?

hanging out with srh & youngling friends! =D

Do you need to say anything to someone?

too many words are unspoken...

Did you have a good day yesterday?

i did~

Do you like messages or comments better?

messages. but i love comments too.

The shirt you're wearing, does anyone else have it?

probably =T

Do you own a camera phone?

lol. duh. 5 mp ftw.

Have you ever skipped school just because you were tired?

nope, i was a good girl =)

Do you like the town you are living in?

yes i quite like it. but it's too empty.

Have you ever thrown a cell phone in anger?

neverrrrrrr.

How many months until your birthday?

10. ew i'll be so old!

How are you feeling right now?

meh.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?

i never do.

Are you jealous of someone right now?

srh. cos arman loves her more. and she saw singing first.

Is it cute when girls kiss you on your cheek?

uh. no thank u. i only like it when one person does it. =P

Do you like to cuddle?

only with some people.

When is your birthday?

21st sept.

Is this year the best year of your life?

probably, can't really tell any more.

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?

more than one.

Would you rather dye your hair or go tanning?

DYE MY HAIR. tanning would be like, wth.

How late did you stay up last night and why?

2ish? dont remember. usual sleep time but was too tired.

Is it easy to annoy you?

yes quite.

Is your bed comfortable?

very. =)

Is your sister a slut?

dont got one.

Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn't do?

dont remember, but pretty sure i have. >=(

What/who woke you up this morning?

nothing, i wake up after 5/6 hrs sleep.

Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning?

night.

Who was the last person to be in your bedroom besides you?

grandma XD

Who is the last person you took a picture with?

nikki. ^^

Whats one thing you're tired of?

thinking too much.

Who means the most to you in your life right now, other than family?

friends.

Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?

cant think of anyone...

Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

no i havent.

What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11?

...nothing?

Who was the last person that hit you?

uhhhhh. hit me and die.

Is there a song that every time you hear it, you think of someone?

yup. =P

Can you commit to one person?

i think so.

Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?

totally!

Has anyone ever said something that brought tears to your eyes?

nope.

Who is the last person you ate with?

family.

Do you miss anyone?

suwii. <3

Think back to the last person you hugged; do they mean anything to you?

nikki means lots =)

Does anyone have STRONG feelings for you?

hahaha i sure hope so XD

Are you in a good mood right now?

not particularly.

So be honest, do you have a guy?

yes. =]

Do you fall for people easily?

no, not at all.

What are you supposed to be doing right now?

assignmenting. ethnic minorities in china. errrrrr. no thanks.

Do you want to be in a relationship right now?

i'm already in one.

Does anyone know your password besides you?

nope.

Would you rather sing or dance in front of 100,000 people?

sing...?

Do you currently like someone who doesn't know you exist?

han geng & yunho. boooo =(

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?

of course >=( what sorta question is this?

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?

water~

Do you laugh a lot?

nope.

Do you like to hold hands?

yep.

What were you doing at 11 this morning?

eating and watching kungfu panda. lol.

Where will you be at 8:30 tomorrow morning?

at home, probably eating.

Is there someone you want a hug from?

right now, no.

I bet you're thinking of someone?

suwii, cos i'm copy/pasting her quiz XD

When is the last time you talked to your biological father?

like half an hr ago?

What’s more important, trust or happiness?

trust.

What shoes did you wear today?

white flip flops with sparkly fake jem. =)

Are you currently wearing a shirt with long or short sleeves?

long.

Do you regret anything you've done this year so far?

uh yeah.

What usually wakes you up in the morning?

whoever gets up before i do.

Are you wearing short shorts?

yup.

Ever had a girl best friend?

always. =)

Who was the first person you talked to today?

dad.

If someone is doing something that pisses you off, do you tell them?

not usually, no.

Will this coming up weekend be a good one?

the next weekend? i hope so! if i get to go out...

Do you have any piercings or tattoos?

3 piercings in ears.

Are you better at remembering names or faces?

faces. names are forgotten after about 5 seconds.

Think a lot before you go to sleep?

i constantly think a lot.

Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunsets?

sunsets <3

Are you wearing anything on your feet?

nope! =)

thoughts:

people on the bus should put clothes on, as i said in my fb status. this especially includes elderly woman wearing bikini-like top, and dude with huge beergut wearing an unzipped jacket. maybe if u were hot and buff, eh?
is it because i'm such a robot that i start to forget people when i dont see them for a long time?
i wanna watch a movie cos i havent seen one since An Education.
currently wishing i was going clubbing tonight.

friday. best day of my not-so-awesome week. ^^

2009-11-13T23:22:00.002+11:00

first of all, =D
second, i thank my friends who made my day today. [karen, hao & my musos]
third, i am less angry at things.

spent the morning dizzy and stumbling around a bit, and studied at uni with karen =)
then we took a break and went to eat dumplings, and the white women next to us were gushing about how good the place was, and i was thinking about how dirty and cheapo it was. lolol. fail. and karen made me eat dumplings! =O

then to docklands for shopping and i got my TWO CAPPUCCINOS <3

hung out with hao and went to get gelati cos he needed a break from nerding. hahaha. awesome. ^^

dinner with musos, Rockpool idea failed cos no space for 9 ppl, duh, hence...went to Blue Train, and also failed, then went to Imperial Hotel for dinner. wow i dont usually go to pubs. O_o it was good! xingy was so hungry she said she'd eat the boys and wondered which one was more like a salad, like lettuce. um....... -_-"
discussed possibility of going to NEW CAL next year OMGAH. heart-shaped swamp! XD

in other news, i still wanna go to the beach. now. time for that quiz suwii told me to do. =)

1. Can you fill this out without lying?

yes.

2. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?

a spoon with gelati on it. =)

3. Who was your last text message from?
daddy chen.

4. Where was your default picture taken?

QV! ^^ taken by srh <3

5. Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?

omg i have NO IDEA O_O yes, it's been THAT long.

6. Name someone that made you laugh today?

karen. =)

7. How late did you stay up last night and why?

3ish? was ebaying and chatting to yuen XD

8. If you could move somewhere else, would you?

temporarily, YES. permanently, i don't think so. but it's possible.

9. Ever been kissed under fireworks?

uh no.

10. Which of your friends lives closest to you?

shuey. =)

11. Do you believe ex's can be friends?

probably...?

12. Calling or texting?

texting texting texting please.

13. How do you feel about Dr. Pepper?

absolutely disgusting.

14. When was the last time you cried really hard?

sometime in may. i think i was hormonal tho.

15. Where is your biological father right now?

in his room...i think. =T

16. Where are you at right now?

in my room. lol duh. =P

17. What bed did you sleep in last night?

um. as if i'd sleep anywhere other than my awesome double bed. =P

18. What was the last thing someone bought for you?

fooooooood~

19. Who took your profile picture?

srh!

20. Was yesterday better than today?

hell no.

21. Can you live a day without TV?

lol i dont even watch tv.

22. Are you mad about anything?

yes.

23. Do you think relationships are really worth it?

yes.

24. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed and why?

[blank]

25. Are you a bad influence?

it depends who i'm influencing =P

26. Night out or night in?

OUT! =D

27. What items could you not go without during the day?

phone, ipod, computer, lip gloss/balm, wallet.

28. Would you share a drink with a stranger?

ew no D:

29. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?

um...probably my grandma, years ago? she didnt stay there too long, thank goodness. =)

30. What does the last text message in your inbox say?

i deleted it, but something like, 'ok i wait you at ivanhoe station' XD daddy chen is fob.

31. How do you feel about your life right now?

it will be better soon.

32. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?

zeroooooo~

33. Do you hate anyone?

hate is too strong a word. so...nope.

34. If we were to look in your inbox, what would we find?

spam emails from bhs girlies, musos, and random things from vic secret, melb central, borders, village, etc. [i delete all the fb ones as soon as i get them lol]

35. Can you easily tell if someone’s fake?

only half the time.

36. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?

uh. what? i think so? =S

37. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?

i dont think so.

38. What song is stuck in your head?

nope.

39. Someone knocks on your window at 2 AM, who do you want it to be?

srh suwii smn cat jn! =)

40. Wanna have kids before you’re 30?

yup yup.

41. Name something you have to do today?

shower. after i do this blog. haha.

42. Can you whistle?

yes, since i was like, 4 or 5. ^^

43. Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?

side or back.

44. Do you think too much or too little?

much. MUCH.

45. Do you smile a lot?

not at all.

46. Can you handle the truth?

most of the time.

47. What was the last book you read?

eclipse. um...lol.

48. Is there something you always wear?

my silver ring. and usually my snowflake pendant <3

49. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

on fb & chatting on msn?

50. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?

seriously, to my face? smn =)

51. Have you ever dyed your hair?

plenty of times. aha.

52. Are you wearing a necklace?

my stairway to heaven necklace which matches with srh's. =D

53. What's something that can always make you feel better?

cake & ice-cream.

54. Will this weekend be a good one?

it will be as uneventful as ever.

55. What do you want right now?

rest.

56. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?

yes. i dont really remember why. =P

57. Look behind you, what do you see?

hello kitty pillow. -_-" wth.

58. Have you ever worked in a food place?

yes and i never will ever again.

59. What would you name your future daughter?

i dont know D:

60. What are your summer plans for 2009?

VANUATU! hk/china. roadtrips. beach.

61. Does anyone know your Facebook password?

of course not!

62. Would you like some cake?

yes. even tho i'm full and i feel fat. CAKE PLEASE <3

that is all. wow that was long. how long did u take, suwii? O_o

random thoughts of today:

CANT WAIT TO GET PHONE CREDIT TOMORROW. prepare for sms/mms spam, y'all. =)

total looking forward to family friend's wedding. dad commented on how it's the 2nd wedding of a family friend from my generation. what's that supposed to mean? =S
2PM's Heartbeat MV is smex. but nichkhun's tuft of tied-up hair is so weird but hilarious. but still hot.

i need new slippers. my peter alexander ones are dying. D:

and so it has begun...

2009-11-12T11:27:00.000+11:00

blog! i havent blogged since yr 12, but have been craving a place to type out all my emotions, ramblings, photos, such and such. and srh, suwii & cat convinced me, so thanks to them ^^

totally supposed to be doing the last assignment of my Bachelor of Arts degree, oh em gee, but taking a day off today...ehe.

current thoughts:

baillieu is cold, they should turn the aircon down to save some black balloons.
needs coffee. yet again.
should stop thinking too much. my life is much better than so many people.
wants a new camera for vanuatu, a lumix lx3 or canon g10 maybe?
cannot wait to get outta here and go to vanuatu with srh & suwii. freedom calls.
is so thankful to have a friend like karen
wants gelati whenever arman posts something about it on his fb.
looking forward to dinner with musos 2moro nite, haven't seen them in aaaaaaages!
waiting for srh to start our collab food blog =]

frustration. guilt. confusion. tiredness.

conclusions from d&m yesturday:

- girls, though we appreciate that our bfs would go wherever we wanna go, sometimes like them to have a plan and decide on a place to take them.

- it would be unwise to have a relationship with someone who has too much in common with u (with emphasis on the 'too much'), because u'd get emotional in the same way, and be angry at the same things. feel free to prove me wrong, anyone.

that's it for now. much love to my readers <3

~ Lily ~